Well... this is it.
And after this little boy is born, never again will I experience the beautiful miracle that is childbirth. The skin to skin contact, the first cuddles, the newborn baby smells, etc. It’s all coming to an end.
It’s an end to an era of my life that I will look back on and treasure forever.
If that’s not a life changing decade, I don’t know what is.
But as I round out the final months of my 20’s, it seems only fitting to finish the era of my life known as pregnancy.
I’m looking forward to feeling GOOD again. I’m looking forward to getting my pre-prego body back (prayers for that one), and focusing on my new beautiful family of 6. It is not lost on me that when Cannon comes, I’ll experience all the “firsts” for the final time as well. And I’m sure I’ll experience those with tears of “bittersweetness”.
I have no idea where this entry is going except to just say that I’m facing the next 4 weeks and some days with a different perspective than I had even 2 days ago. I am looking forward to saying goodbye to all this pregnancy uncomfortableness… the “wow, you’re big” comments (people… I am 4’10” with practically no torso. There are only so many places a baby can go in this belly… A 5 lb gain on me looks like a 10 lb gain on an average person... you do the math), the peeing every 10 minutes, the waddling, the restless nights, and the nervousness that all comes with expecting a baby…. All of that being said, I’ll be sad to never experience the beautiful parts of pregnancy again.
But even more so, I’m looking forward to saying hello to my unbelievably handsome baby boy, spending my nights rocking and cuddling him, listening to all the baby noises, seeing Kyli become a big sister for the first time and interact with her little brother, (I already know that Chelsi and Greg are amazing older siblings, so I’m not expecting that to change at all J ), actually seeing the scale go DOWN instead of up every week, feeling like a BEAST again while competing in running/cycling races, and being able to wear more than 5 outfits in my closet.